Past-Knight of Wands
Present-Ace of Swords
Future-Tree of Pentacles rx
The card for Past is the Knight of Wands. I see this as showing me as the lady in the background grieving and watching the man, who appears to be ignoring her and looking away. There is a horse in the background-I love horses and was trying to learn to ride not to long ago, would like to again in the future. I think the horse refers to me...maybe he has liked horse also in the past. The man is careful with his appearance, almost to the point of being a dandy. It is like I was dead to him.
The card for the Present is the Ace of Swords. The Ace of Swords is considered as the "truth" card: cutting through the BS to get to the heart of a matter, and with a minimal of emotion. In this card though, the sword is upside down from the typical position it is in of pointing upward. This makes me think that it therefore means the opposite of what it typically means. Perhaps it indicates that I have a "Fear" of facing the truth him. I do tend to avoid conflict or speaking what I truly feel or think. Maybe he is that way also.
There is also, however, a "Sword in the Stone" feel to it. Will someone young and new pull this sword out and use it once more? That our Ace of Swords begins in a flowering graveyard suggests, to me that new ideas, mental inspirations, intellectual "flowering" are often inspired by past deeds and acts or words. It's in old battles from ages past that we discover weapons to carry into new battles. Maybe starting up a relationship with him would be hard, like pulling the sword out, but then it will be the beginning of a great change for me like what happened with King Arthur.
The Future is the Three of Pentacles reversed. The good doctor, from his laboratory, watches his monster taking it's first steps, revealing itself from under the bandages; he is both shocked and triumphant! He's done it! You can almost hear him saying, "Alive! It is ALIVE!" All his hard work, all his plans, the realization of his vision made manifest. And yet...it is cobbled together, imperfect. The beginning, not the end of what he hopes to achieve. And there will be a cost to this initial success as we who've read the story well know. Thus, we have the 3/Pents meaning of something envisioned being made concrete, the initial completion of some part of a work-in-progress. We have the message that persistence and skill can bring real world results no matter how impossible something may seem on paper (don't give up, even if they call your idea "mad!" and insane!). We have that feeling of pride in an achievement. We have the idea that this will turn doubters into believers and finally earn the craftsman support. Yet, at the same time, we also have that knowledge that the craftsman's materials do not come free. He is going to have to pay for that stolen brain he put into that monster in some fashion or other. And the good doctor is certainly going to be remembered for his work.
Since I am reading with a dark deck to begin with, I am going to take the meaning I am getting with it upright and discount the typical reversed meaning. I think what it is telling me it that a romantic relationship will be born between the two of us, but it will be cobbled together like the monster, and I things won't go the way I want them to. Maybe after a while I will forget that I wanted it in the beginning, and not want to take responsibility for all the things that keep a relationship going.
I love the Bohemian Gothic Tarot but I think that I am going to switch to a more balanced deck in the future and save it for readings where I want to look at the shadow side of question. I think this deck is too tilted towards things being dark and is in my opinion mainly useful for looking at those kinds of issues.
